Dwarfism. I mean no respect to the many individuals who are genetic dwarfs, when I say that I can so easily feel dwarfed. What's It Gonna Take to stand tall, against odds?

Take yesterday. Read a great deal about Rwanda's efforts toward unity and reconciliation, which are huge, driving, and successful. How can my little project really help all that much? What if it undermines the good work of that Commission? It might be laughed off, when I finally get an audience with the major players in the government. It may be totally off the wall, and stupid.

You see the language I use? SO WHAT if the project is finally rejected? At least I gave it a shot.

Then, glutton for pushinment, I read about the scions of academics who have written and published about these weighty matters. I don't even have an academic appointment. SO WHAT??? Why should I feel small when I'm proposing a project that isn't even going to compensate me very well, except for my travel and expenses.

You see how I let myself feel small and insignificant.....So, how to stand tall and feel big?

Think of this Rwanda project as play, not work. Then I can apply these standards: do I enjoy it? Is it hurting anyone? Do others like playing with me? Does it bring me joy? So what, if it comes to nothing, the way play comes to nothing, except an exercise in joy and creativity?